The Adrenaline Rush of a Free-Fall

There’s a “beach” by my home. It’s a little pond in the middle of land-locked Colorado, hence the quotation marks. My hound loves to lollop in the water while I enjoy the illusion of the tropics or do yoga on the “sand.”

Today there was a hawk flying above the pond.

This hawk was magnificent. The grace with which it circled was mesmerizing. After a few moments, however, I realized that it wasn’t flapping its wings. Instead this hawk spread its wings and caught wind currents. In five minutes or so, I counted only three flaps.

There was one moment when the hawk hovered directly over me. It hung in the air, utterly still. Then it dropped. Before I could gasp, another wind current swept the hawk up and sent it gliding in another direction.

I’m a rock climber and I’ve facilitated hundreds of kids, teens, and adults over the sides of cliffs. I’m also terrified of heights. The best part about climbing and rappelling is I have a rope tied to a harness and both could catch a school bus. I know I’m safe.

The worst part about climbing and rappelling is that air looks like absolutely nothing. When I’m stepping off a cliff or talking someone else into doing it, the number-one concern is that the only thing visible is the ground far, far below.

Because of my fear of heights, my heart and stomach were in my mouth just watching the hawk deadfall. The hawk may have blinked, but he certainly didn’t flap his wings. He was expecting another current of wind to scoop him up and he was positioned to catch it.

For the last several months, I have been feeling like I’m in a deadfall. Unfortunately, my response hasn’t been what the hawk’s was; I’ve been flapping and screeching and frantically looking for something to grab onto.

So much for faith.

God sustains all that lives and breathes in this wild, untamable universe we call home. He is the all-loving, all-powerful, all-knowing, all-seeing, all-present God who comprehends, enables, and sustains the plans He has for me (Jer. 29:11). He’s like the wind. I may not be able to see Him, but like the hawk knows another current is coming, I know He’s there, waiting to catch me.

But, oh, how often I let my fear get the better of me!

I want to be like the hawk. I want to know my God so well that as I fall, I grin at the sheer joy and adrenaline rush of a life lived fully yielded to the God who dares me to “taste and see that the Lord is good” (Ps. 34:8)!

Scripture is full of pleas and promises from the God who created and sustains the universe to trust Him so that He can bless us. If we let Him, the God who knows us fully and loves us completely will scoop us up and help us soar.